DreAms....

everybody has a dreams, or maybe lots of dreams. in malay definition of dream is, mimpi...or sometimes it is used as impian or angan2....but whatever its means, for me, dreams is something that mostly about myself, half part of myself is dream...since i was young, i dream to be a teacher....consulting students in every ways, i love the job very much....i remember that every time my teacher ask to write an essay about ambition.....teacher will be ,my topic.

but some tomes i do feel like those dreams are false n just a dreams....that why it calls dream....u cannot achieve it...my father is a teacher. he teach math and now he is head master. when im thinking of that fact, do i want to become a teacher because of him???? even some times i feel like i dont suit this job but now im taking TESL....

it doesnt same like i never have a dream comes true....my dream almost come true, but is that really what i want...there is a lot of people that want to become a singer even they holding degree...and other people wants to become singer but they not fated to enter music industry....

some times, i dont even know what my dreams are....maybe it is because a lot of daydreaming....hehe...but seriously, i just love to know what am i good at, what am i supposed to be in future that suit me...i can make that as my dreams...but it will never be happen...people just dont know their future to keep them dreaming....

as told before i love to dream...and my biggest dreams ever is i wish that i know what am i gonna be next day.....till then...XOXO..

2010.....bye 2009

it has been long time not write on this wall....macam2 dah berlaku, semuanya sgt menyeronokkan dan ada yang menyedihkan. but, that is life. every body has matter and problems.....

but the whole 2009 really change me lots. sikap is still the same...im still the same person....not mention, still single...hak3...tapi apa yang penting 2009 mmg banyak cabarannya...

bermula januari 2009. i love my live. spotlight always on me. sebagai manusia yang berkecimpung dalam dunia seni....mesti akan ade pahit n manis....semester baru bermula...juga semester yang students yg terjelopok sem1 akan berusaha mendaki semula tangga....tapi bg yang mendaki escalator....diorang tak tgok belakang dah....tros jer....tp......ade jugak yang tersepit kan tangga n jadi macam final destination 4...heheh....

x kesah la ada kategory yang mana....tp i was in the last category....die on escalator in final destination...hehehe....bila terlalu mengejar populariti dan kejujuran tu da x de da dalam diri.....at that time u will realize that u are already at the bottom and ready to be kick out.....

i have lost the strength to get up of my knees.....but slowly.....nothing can stop if u dare to face it back....and here i am.....facing the new whole world.....avoiding the spotlight, be as low profile as i can.....collecting sweet memory, and rebuilt the dream...and i know i can do it.....

2010....it is like nothing to me....selalu kalau tahun2 sebelum ni....i will be hanging out with friends, lepak2 kat mc D....x pon tgok wayang....but this year, lay on my bed, with new novel in hand....and i dont even notice the 12.00 o'clock strike n when i realize...it is 2.00 a.m....n i miss the countdown....to be true, i dont even mind about it....i just love what im doing that night even im alone in the house....hehehehehe

even today is about a week in 2010.....i dont even made a new resolution or what ever.....i just know that what i need now is to be me as always...coz i know...being me in better version is much more happy than enyone i can be....

so....happy new year.... X0X0....